11 months DRUG FREE - " but I have a prescription"

11 months ago, I was at my cousin Curtis Harriott – MMA title fight at the Hard Rock Casino Vancouver when I bumped into bro of mine that I used to go to Narcotics Anonymous with years earlier.
I was pretty stoked to see him and tell him how proud I was for being clean from cocaine, herion, and crystal meth now for nearly 1 year.

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He asked if I was still taking the oxycontin for pain management.
I had been taking many pain killers over the years as I have 3 fully degenerated disks in my lower back that pinch the nerves so bad that I often can not feel my legs, pain unbearable, and also a fully torn ACL, and completely blown ligament in my elbows, on top of a torn Supraspinatus muscle in my shoulder.
Oh, and to ice the cake, in 2014, I had broke my pelvis nearly in half. ( open book fracture – 1 steel plate 6 bolts put me back together, but not without leaving me with a 4 inch hernia that isn’t painful but sure feels awkward to say the least.
Anyhow, boohoo poor me , yes, 11 months ago I was consuming many pain killers just to get my ass outta bed in the morning and on with my day.
My bro says to me that I am NOT CLEAN, if I am still consuming even so much as 1 pain killer.
I actually walked away from him pretty pissed that night and thought to myself “but I have a prescription”??
I went home and later said to myself, “SELF, what happens when I start Breaking the Chains BC , flipping that tractor tire 30 kms in 30 days to raise awareness to #PTSD and the media or the people get wind that I’m still using opiates to get through my day”?
They will not listen to all my surgical excuses, all they will do is judge me and think of me as a #addict still.
Do they really know what an ADDICT is though or what we live with each day?
They should put their cell phone away for 30 days, ok wait that would be impossible, try 7 days, and have a small taste of what #addcition is like.( raises an eye brow)
Time to check into Vancouver Coastal Health Detox Services – Nexus ( AGAIN )
Opiate withdrawal – personal experience.
You ever try to dig through your skin just to pull your veins out ONLY TO MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER ?
You ever have 15-25 days of extreme insomnia, where your mind is so wide awake but yet all you can hear are the voices of your thoughts wirlwinding through your mind like a freight train doing 9000 miles per hour, and yet, everyone around you is sleeping.
You ever have your nose run like a faucet for 3 weeks straight, while your arms flail around uncontrollably and your legs just wont stop shaking, so you just pace the room like a budgie in a cage, back n forth back n forth , GOING NOWHERE
You ever sit their for weeks with NO thoughts or TO MANY thoughts while the people around you look at you as though your completely insane?
That feeling you get when you try to get out of bed, but every single hair on your body feels like they are broken bones – dope sick
How about that moment you think you were asleep but wake up to buckets of sweat tickling your belly as the toxins pour out of your soul as you lay there for weeks shivering and wanting to cry but your pours bleed sweat instead of your soul crying tears. BRUTAL
( list of tourcher goes on )
As of today, I have not figured it all out by all means, but will say that I have learned a few things that help me get thought each day one day at a time which has got me 11 months in so far without any drugs OR PAINKILLERS ( drugs ) 100 % clean
Im certainly not a doctor, but if I was to suggest my personal medicine to any human looking to BREAK FREE, to a more clean, organic, happier, stress free, depression free life would be as follows.
1) excersise
2) nutrition / hydration
3) meditation / spirituality / higher power / forgiveness
4) volunteer and help someone for a minimum of 2 hours each day NO EXCUSES
and simply #knowyourself, #beyourself, #loveyourself
We will not just stop being ADDICTS, but we have the choice today to change what we are addicted to.
I am eternally grateful for my friends and family in my life today and for all of my new facebook friends out their around the world.
Thank you for believing in me, and always sharing our program and helping support all that we at Breaking the Chains BC does to help raise awareness to PTSD / ADDICTION / MENTAL HEALTH.
Without your support, LIKES and SHARES, we certainly wouldn’t be where we are today to help those who are still suffering and trying to survive in the #darkness, #depressed, #anxious, #stressed, #addicted, #suicidal, #withouthope, #PTSD
Our mind is the worst enemy , connecting together as people, supporting and understanding each other without the dollar, without judgment, without the drugs, is our strongest weapon against mental illness / addiction no matter what age you are or how dark the day may seem.
VERY SPECIAL THANK YOU today to Scott Tha Funk Mclaughlin for trusting me with his motorcycle this past weekend to go on a recovery ride put on by Last Door Recovery Society that raised thousands of dollars to go towards their #youth at #risk / #family program.
Thank you Ralf Slossarek for keeping a 5 star roof over my head, food in my belly and gas in the tank all weekend.
Without the support from these 2 close brothers of mine, My life and journey today would not be possible.
Dam , another 3:30 am post – Did I ever tell you addicts never stop?
Especially when driven with our hearts .. enjoy your day .
photo by Kayla Arnold

My Hotel Sponsor Caught Me Stealing ..ya gotta do what ya gotta do

My hotel sponsor CAUGHT ME STEALING,

I feel horrible, but ya just gotta do what ya gotta do to raise awareness to #ptsd.
General Manager, Tony Medd of the Summit Lodge Boutique Hotel, tells his side of the story.
Only 6 weeks after coming down of the Lions Gate Bridge, I had a dream, and a goal.
My dream, to run a camp for first responders who suffer with PTSD, and a goal, to raise awareness to PTSD.
In order to make the dream and my goal a reality, I needed to learn how to use the internet.Keep in mind I was 200 kms away from any humans, a place where internet just did not even exist.
Jan/ early Feb 2015, I had made my way into Whistler, and started grinding away at my goals.
I was only 6 weeks into my opiate and other substance withdrawals, and didn’t have a penny to my name and had just picked up 2 bags of food from the local Food Bank.
NOTHING was going to stop me from fulfilling this dream now that I had another chance at life.
I had spent the first few days outside the Blendz coffee shop poaching the internet from 11 pm till about 5 am ..everyday freezing cold, fingers numb, hungary and homeless.
After a few 22 hour days, I found it a real pain in the ass sitting outside in the freezing cold and I walked across the street one morning to use the bathroom at the Summit Lodge Hotel.While I was in the bathroom I was like …AWWW DAM it sure is nice n warm in here.
I now found my new office, the bathroom floor beside the urinals, Didn’t bother me , as only a few weeks earlier i was trying to survive in the alleyways down on E.Hastings,the bowels of Vancouver.
Pffft , bathroom floors…LUXURY.
Now, I had noticed that every time I stepped outside to have a cigarette , I saw that nobody was at the front desk.
A thought crossed my mind as I looked over through the lobby at the big warm welcoming fireplace and super rad comfy couch , with big ol pillows.Sure would be nice to set up shop there.Certainly better than the floors in the pisser.
I rolled the dice , and set my computer up night after night, everyday until the first hotel customer had came down off the elevator for coffee.I even went so far as to bring my own tea lights and candles.
I’ll never forget the feeling in my gut when something came over me and thought, maybe I should write the GM and ask him to help sponsor me and allow me to have a room for one night per week in order for me to at least have a quik nap in a bed, and a shower once per week.
Remember, in those days I was homeless in Whistler, and was only napping 3 hrs every morning per day for weeks.
Us addicts will go to any length to get what we need, no mountain is to HIGH, no law is to stiff, no penalty would ever stop us from getting from a-b.
I sent Tony Medd an email and , he responded with a email politely asking me to not return to the hotel again.
My heart was broken.
All I could think and feel was, even after 5 long years of suffering with PTSD, the loss of my family of 13 years, my careers, my friends and numerous denials from WCB..now I get yet another door slammed in my face and what did I do to deserve this way of life for so long?
When would i ever get a break?
The thoughts of giving up crossed my mind for about 3 seconds, and I looked up into the universe and smiled.I knew I had a purpose on this earth and I was simply NOT IN CONTROL of it at all, and this was just the way it was meant to be.
So I left the hotel back out into the brittle cold to keep driving from my heart at my goals and dreams.
Thanks to my higher power and beautiful destiny, Tonys initial judgment of me was changed within hours and next thing ya know i found myself eating at a 5 star restaurant and given a executive king size suite 3 days a week for as long as i needed to get the work done.
Now, nearly 2 years later, I still have my room here at the Summit Lodge, and am proud to say that we started www.campmyway.com last summer and to date have almost made 1 million views through our social media / websites, instagram, twitter , CTV NEWS, Global News, every news paper from Canada to Germany and we are now helping change the workers compensation law to help other First Responders who suffer with PTSD get the help they need upon request, without years of suffering and or facing the horrific thoughts of leaving there friends and families behind from takin their own life.
The success to these last 2 years of hard work in raising awareness to PTSD , is only possible because of one of our first sponsors Tony Medd at the Summit Lodge Boutique in Whistler.
None of this would be possible if it weren’t for Tonys genuine compassion and for believing in me.
I will admit , these last few days have been pretty stressful for me as I can’t possibly tell you all in a facebook post or quik video just how grateful I am to Tony and all the staff here at the Summit Lodge.
I will ask you now though, please help me show Tony the support he deserves by voting Summit Lodge to win for the 3 year in a row to be Canada’s #1 Ski Hotel by clicking the link below you can vote now.
http://worldskiawards.com/…/summit-lodge-boutique-hotel-2016

NDP/MLA Shane Simpson shackled in Chains - PTSD / Mental Health Awareness

My new Friend Mr.Shane Simpson, a member of the legislative assembly, joined us last week to help help us flip our tire while shackled in chains to raise awareness to PTSD and support those suffering with mental illness.

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