“We are not human anymore”, says Kosikar
The Lion wakes to a forest he has had to survive in his entire life,
To remain at the top of the food chain, instinctually picking up tools of survival along the way,
Deep scars, from many years of battles,
Some visible, most mental,
From simply doing what needed to be done to feed himself each day on this planet they call earth.
The sound of broken branches, forces the Lion to put down his pen,
his tail stops flicking,
ears perk up straight,
2 baby deer and their mother,
come walking onto the Lions plate.
He licks his sharp fangs,
as it’s been days,
since he last ate.
One paw in front of the next, he quietly stalks his prey,
Knowing from experience,
When faced with a life or death situation,
The deer are hardwired,
NOT to FIGHT, but to take FLIGHT … for it lives in fear.
Just like humans,
Not trained or given ANY basic tools of survival at home,
or in a classroom as a child –
many years WASTED,
NOT EVER, taught to simply breathe, to calm our sadness, depression, anxiety.
Naturally, we must talk it out – TO WHO ?
– not while learning.
SELF CARE – money matters
Taught well, endless debt
FOR WHO ?
The baby deer are like children,
Eyes wide open,
Innocently, eating the grass,
Ready to flee,
with the shift of the wind,
At a moments notice,
THE LION POUNCES,
all 3 deer run for their lives,
each in a different direction.
Just like humans do,
in a natural disaster, or life threatening situation.
( flight )
The Lion focus’s on the weakest, slowest, baby deer,
Back and forth,
the deer zigs, and zags,
jumping, running, panicked
and just before the Lion reaches the helpless little one,
Paralyzed with fear, too much Adrenalin,
knowing instinctively, this beast will eat her alive in just a few moments.
The baby deer didn’t give up on purpose, ( freeze )
This is simply a natural reaction when a mammals body endures this much excitement.
Some call it turtling up, or playing possum or playing dead.
The animal, just like a human’s body reacts naturally like this when it danger or faced with something so overwhelming it simply shuts down immediately in response to the trauma,
Keep in mind, this is how ALL mammals are hard wired period. .
It’s a natural survival mechanism embedded into us as all – animals / humans
Also keep in mind, that if this baby deer was eaten, she will not feel any pain or suffer at all .
She has so much adrenalin, stress, anxiety caught in her nervous system..all her emotions and feelings are numb.
The Lion wraps his strong jaws around the little one,
and carries his capture over to a tree,
and stashes it for later.
The mother deer, and brother deer don’t even look back.
they move on in life, for this is just the way it is in their world.
No tears, no depression, no stress,
they don’t feel suicidal.
They continue on,
never looking back,
they live in the moment,
Not in the past.
“Wait a minute”, who’s that ?
Out from behind the tree,
walks the baby deer,
Shaking and trembling uncontrollably -” NATURALLY ”
( same as soldiers when witnessing trauma or life threatening situation )
quote from fellow soldier-
” He was so scared, he shaking in his boots”.
Keep in mind, that when the baby deer collapsed, she was running for her life at 60 mph.
This is the amount of adrenilyn caught in her system.
60 mph of stress
60 mph of anxiety
60 mph of fear
heart rate – guess
“”THIS IS VITAL TO KNOW ABOUT ANY TRAUMA ENDURED OUR LIVES””
This shaking or trembling is a NATURAL RESPONSE in all of us.
Animals and humans.
This is when we MUST shake off the adrenalin, stress, anxiety caught in our nervous system.
ALL humans and animals ( mammals ) do this naturally, but when humans do it , other humans will STOP a person from the shaking as they think something is horribly wrong..
this is NOT GOOD..we must at the time allow our bodies to shed this out of ourselves or as we see today…so many problems with humans living with nightmares, stress, anxiety, depression will stay with us eternally making us suffer.
They may now spend months or even years talking about their experiences, reliving them, expressing their anger, fear, and sorrow, but without passing through the primitive “immobility responses” and releasing the residual energy, they will often remain stuck in the traumatic maze and continue to live in distress.
Without proper tools and resources, most of us fail.
The result, sadly, is many of us become riddled with fear and anxiety and are never fully able to feel at home in our world.
The young deer reunites with her mother and brother again.
She walks, Slowly eating the grass naturally again.
The mother deer doesn’t run over asking, “are you ok, are you ok?”
The young deer doesn’t run out panicked or scared telling stories of how this beastly Lion captured her and stashed her to be eaten later.
The young deer doesn’t talk about it – over and over – and over again.
The young deer doesn’t go seek pills or wonder all day and night why she was captured and not eaten.
The young deer simply is not even so much as traumatized what so ever,
neither is the mother or brother deer.
For they have been hardwired to accept this way of life,
Instinctively, they know this is just the way it is in their world.
These animals do NOT live with Post Traumatic Stress.
From birth, they have a clear understanding,
who they are,
and how to take care of themselves from DAY ONE,
and simply accept who they are, and how they fit into this world.
We as humans used to have this natural, basic animal instinct ,
But over time, its has slowly been bred out of us .
making us wonder,
Why so many suffer today ?
The answer is simple !
As of today, we aren’t even human beings anymore.
We are BLINDLY becoming robots,
Machines without oil,
Clean water, healthy food
and are handed these plastic devices they call tools –
Hypnotized we’ve become –
Slave to a screen ..
Deaf to whats around us
Made to feel,
we have to dress a certain way,
act a certain way,
walk a certain way ,
or else we will get shunned out of our groups,
as quick as your finger can touch the screen
forgotten that quick…gone forever.
1000’s of years ago, we did not wear uniforms,
we did not drive BMW’s
nor dress in suits and ties.
A WOLF was a WOLF,
now .. the wolf puts on sheeps clothing,
and what we see,
IS NOT WHAT WE GET.
Humans today are so spoiled,
Selfishly, greedily, wanting more and more and more.
But with today’s technology,
we assume we can just google our problems
or take some pills,
to fix the INSANITY.
1000’s of years ago,
we lived and thrived along animals ..AS ANIMALS
our common senses have been slowly bred out of us,
Our thoughts, and basic needs have become so selfish, so careless,
Our diets – GARBAGE
Our laws and rules – RIDICULAS
Our friends now a days only become friends …with a touch of a button
We share our meals …as a uploaded file
We share our laughter … with a yellow icon or a ” lol ”
We only “LIKE” something …after looking at it for a mere 0.4 seconds
Within 20 minutes,
We’ve “LIKED”, 40 things,
But with- in another 20 minutes,
Can you even remember what you really LIKE ?
I sit here after 40 long years,
Why the gang life as a teenager ?
Why did I or how could i have assaulted so many ?
Why the drugs ?
Why the bullets ?
Why the streets , so cold, heartless, ruthless.
How was incarceration to help me ?
Why so many years of punishment?
Why so many names, characters?
Why so many sleepless nights, vivid nightmares, brutal thoughts and fantasies?
How could I have ever sold my body and soul to the devil ? sexual assault
Take lives, save lives, lost lives
EVER REALLY LIVING ?
I look back and wonder at which road I should have turned left instead of right,
But from childhood, we are not given maps, we are not given any tools ,
1st words we hear from birth are NO , and DO NOT!
As we grow,
we are given more options,
More signs, more rules, more laws ,
Do this or else,
Don’t go here ,
Cant go there
Go this way
DONT do that
ABANDONED if injured , left to the wolves
The sheep must be hearded
I sit here and have a clear understanding now from so many wrong turns and why I made these wrong turns.
I was never given tools at home,
Hour after hour, day after day, month after month, year after year,
COMPLETLY WAISTED in a classroom never given ONE SINGLE class or tool or lesson as to learning anything about myself …or anything about people..or survival.
Learned the hard way yes, and all the people I’ve met during those lessons
Burried 6 ft deep
I wonder , at what point in todays day, will anyone try and push to have it implemented into our children’s education ?
SELFCARE and learn more about ourselves and WHO we are and Why we are.
At home, they get a tablet, or a iPad, cell phone or Xbox ..eyes closed , shakes my head … robots are growing
Ya can’t teach a old dog new tricks?
We learn most about life from ages 3- 9 yrs old
Well. why can we not have a class everyday, every year from grade 1 – 8 about US , Selfcare
and learn more about each other as people,rather than how to make more money money money .
EDUCATION is KEY to survival.
What we are educated on is what matters 1+1 equals 2 ?
We wait till we go to the doctors to learn whats wrong..and are handed a life sentence to it.
Why do we wait till we are broken to go get fixed ?
I sit and wonder,
Imagine hows kids today ages 3- 9 would be like 20 yrs from now, if they took 1 hr day to learn more about themselves and how to exercise, eat properly, drink more water, get off the plastic devices. and just talk about who they are and how they are feeling to each other and made it a practice to do so everyday.
The pharmasutcle companies, doctors, shrinks, treatment centers,insurance companies liquor stores,drug stores would all be outta business ..for the most part.
We as humans are not sick ,
Humans today – ARE THE VIRUS on this earth.
If we were handed these plastic devices from aliens 3000 yrs ago…what would be look like today?
What would we eat toady , how would we FEEL today as people?
excatly …we wouldn’t even be here
Only 10 years ago, the subways were fully of laughter, the streets full of converstions.
Restaurants full of talk ..and emotions were on everyones faces
Today , the subway doors close. all is quite…
Today, the lady at the grocery doesn’t even smile
You stand at a red light ..everyone looking at their phones.
They have a thought, they text it ,
They have a emotion, they click it…painful to watch, emotionless, robotic.
I used to laugh when they started putting the BEEP BEEP sounds at red lights and green lights for blind people ..knowing, there isn’t that many blind people walking around EVERY street at EVERY light in EVERY city …they were put in for us … THE BLIND.
Well..that’s about enough for todays feelings, off to the gym to shake off all the trauma still stuck in my nervous system ..I must do this daily.
I still live with 40 yrs of Trauma stuck in me ..gotta lot of work to do daily to prevent the nightmares, the depression, the anxiety and stress from kicking in.
`Im not 100 % healed and more than likely never will be , but there is a lot we can do each day to prevent the problems or stress from arising.
Written by – Terrance Joseph Kosikar